A Little Bit of November

I’m just now starting to come out of the foggy haze that washed over me last week — a low fever, chills, and not much else to show for it all. I felt bad enough to notice but not enough to take off of work. My coworkers kept offering me various cold medicines, despite my insistence that it does very,very bad things to my personality. It took me a few days to realize they want to see how bad “very, very bad” actually is.

I’m feeling much better now, thanks.

It’s November which means it’s National Novel Writing Month. Regrettably, I haven’t been participating in NaNoWriMo as it didn’t really line up with my work on Pantheon. Maybe next year I can take the time to get to one of the other stories from the Matters of Mortology cycle. There’s certainly more from that world I want to explore and a month should be the perfect amount of time for a little side trip through one of them.

So, no NaNoWriMo for me this year. I am writing but it’s not going to be done in a month. Optimistically, it will likely take another four months before I’ve got the current project to a point where it feels like a solid first draft. Realistically, it could be six months or more. As I learned on Assam & Darjeeling, real life has a tendency to get in the way of real writing.

I’ve enjoyed cheering on everyone else at Plurk and Twitter who are battling their way through NaNoWriMo, though.

It’s a really terrific idea, setting aside a month to push through something towards completion. Too often, writers (myself included) get a little discouraged or distracted by what we’re working on, going back over the same passages again and again without actually moving through to the end. A commitment to NaNoWriMo is a great antidote for that tendency.

(And that’s the last time I’ll use the acronym NaNoWriMo on this site until December — no, wait…)

I’ve written about it before, I know, but I’ve found that writing out a first draft in longhand — and sometimes the second as well — is a perfect way to protect myself from going back and trying to edit and re-edit what I’m writing. I’m not anti-technology at all, of course. But I’ve found that (for me) there’s something very gratifying about having the pages pile up in real time, line by line. And you end up with a very interesting artifact that has heft and weight beyond the amount of space it takes up on the hard drive. The four notebooks in which I wrote the first draft of Assam & Darjeeling are some of my most treasured possessions. If the house ever goes up in flames, I’m diving out the window with them and the family photos.

Another reason that NaNoWriMo (sorry) works is that it forces a writer to stay connected to their own continuity. The past few weeks have been a rough time for me, thanks to unforeseen wrinkles in my schedule and fighting off being sick. And so, when I (for instance) left a dapper little prick named Trip heading down Swift’s Row to teach “Saint” Stephen Murphy a lesson… well, unfortunately I’d forgotten what exactly Trip’s lesson was to be, once I got back to him.

And thus we build our little palaces along the shores of our mind… and then we can only stand and watch as the waves roll in.

I’m sure I’ll think of something sooner or later. If not, I can always count on Trip to come up with it. He is shaping up to be a bright fellow. He’s going to have to be, if this story is still headed where I think it’s headed.

It was just November, and now it’s nearly gone. Thanksgiving next week but there’s already snow falling around the state. I work out near Lake Michigan and we got 2-4 inches earlier in the week. Back in town though, it was sunny. People kept asking where I’d come from, with all that ice and snow on my car. No one got my Niflheimr joke, which was a disappointment.

But I have bigger problems to contend with. Winter is here and the gods apparently decided I don’t really need a functioning heater or defroster in my car. Which is… problematic when the temperature is dropping daily. We’re averaging in the 30′s right now, with 20′s and below overnight. It’s only going to go lower as the world tilts and that long cold shadow slides across us. And ice should not form on the inside of the windshield. So let’s get that fixed this week, yes?

The Winter Chap has sold a handful of copies, which is nice to see. You could even get one for yourself. And it’s seasonal; there’s a Christmas story in there that I’m particularly proud of. Consider it your donation to my personal battle against the Frost Giants.

And next comes Christmas. I don’t have a lot of good ideas for gifts this year, so I’m considering just buying myself some of these to replace the family and friends I’m sure to lose.

Garrick’s Lament and the Appeal of Milkweed

The new site is up and running, mostly without any major problems — thanks mostly to WordPress rather than my own skills. And I’m still picking off the 1,600+ blog entries from the past 8 years, getting those manually moved over from Blogger to the new format. If you’re really wondering what I was blogging about in 2004, you’re just going to have to be patient to find out.

The new project — working title: Pantheon — is still coming along slowly, due more to some genuinely frustrating time and schedule constraints than any creative issues. The lack of time to write is becoming an increasing annoyance — and not just for this project. It’s been this way for a long time. I cannot help but feel envious of the writers who manage to make the shift to full-time. One day…

For almost twenty years I’ve tracked my time during the day in fifteen minute increments which standard when you work at any kind of advertising or marketing agency. It’s also an interesting place to keep your head on a regular basis. Once that mindset becomes routine, it’s difficult to turn it off. During the day, that time is time spent (usually) in support of a client. It is productive time and (usually) profitable time. Meaning, we will invoice someone for it. Which is why it is tracked so closely.

Off-hours, however, the mechanism remains the same but I’ve found the mental tracking inverts. Instead of tracking productive time, I unconsciously note unproductive time. Even your normal (e.g. real life) activities are measured in those terms: Making the kids’ lunches, emptying the dishwasher, a phone call from a friend, watching television, writing this blog post . . . those fifteen minutes add up to a lot of time.

Which is rough when you live in a world where time not spent writing is time not writing. It’s lost and whatever might have been written is lost as well.

Early on in DC Comics Kingdom Come by Mark Waid and Alex Ross, we get a glimpse inside the life of The Flash — who has become so fast that he lives between the ticks of the clock. This has, in essence, removed him from reality. When I first read that, I couldn’t help but think “Yeah, I get that…” Or perhaps it’s just the Mercury helmet I relate to.

Possibly I’m just another whiny writer blogging about not having enough time — at least, some of the time.

Speaking of unproductive time, had a very nice weekend. Got a little bit of work done on Pantheon and the new podcast, as well as a considerable amount of noodling on the October Surprise (which has now grown into two separate and rather different surprises, so I’m trying to decide which one I want to do more).

Spent Saturday afternoon wandering through one of an antique mall in one of the dilapidated warehouses near my house. Approximately ninety-eight percent of the merchandise was there during my last visit six months ago, most of it junk. I did spend some time marveling over a remarkably well preserved Steiff Hitler. Toys and dolls of political figures are nothing new, apparently, but it was still odd to think of a child in their crib cuddling with little Adolph.

“There’s a story in that somewhere,” I thought to myself.

“Yes,” I replied. “And Rod Serling wrote it like fifty years ago.”

I did manage to turn up a couple of vintage fountain pens. They sounded like maracas when shaken, a sure sign that the ink and reservoir sacs within had disintegrated. But they were beautiful and quite inexpensive (likely due to their frozen levels and the crumbled mess inside), so I decided it was time I learned how to restore vintage pens.

Back home, Keeley took a nap and I spent a happy hour or so gently disassembling the pens — a Parker and a Welch — and cleaning out the petrified muck from inside the barrels. A few quick searches online, and I had an order in for replacement sacs and some shellac. Updates on my progress to (hopefully) follow soon.


Sunday we spent the afternoon with my wife’s grandparents out at Aurohn Lake — rapidly becoming my favorite place on the planet. Typically, I don’t get nostalgic for places but there’s something very special about this spot. Maybe it’s the determination of the beavers, doggedly blocking the spillway on the dam despite our efforts to keep it clear every few weeks. Keeley did the honors this time around, while I watched and took pictures.

Or maybe it’s the hill, just beyond Six Bar Gate at the edge of the forest. At the summit, there are spots where the waist-high grass has been matted down in gentle depressions by sleeping deer, like snow angels. And to one side there’s a large, wide hole that leads (I’m sure) deep into the hill where a badger in a waistcoat sits by a fire, checking his pocketwatch and ignoring the little showers of soil that fall into his teacup from my pacing overhead.

A card table and a folding chair, a few fresh pens and my notebook . . . sounds like the perfect place to spend an afternoon, writing and looking out at the view. milkweed

Then again, it’s probably just the milkweed pods — caught in the midst of their annual, slow motion explosion. We each did our part to ensure that they continue their dominion over the eastern edge of the lake.

Regardless, it’s a wonderful place and it was a good day. I spent much of it talking about writing with Keeley’s grandfather and digging through his old radio scripts from the forties.



Papercraft Poe
Rounding the corner into Halloween, I though it might be appropriate to share this little papercraft Poe. I’m considering the logistics of making hundreds of them and setting up an invasion on the lawn and porch for trick-or-treaters. Perhaps not.

After that, it’ll be time to vote. Here’s my official endorsement.


Winter will be upon us then. Much as I am looking forward to its return, this story has made me very sad. Here’s hoping Phoenix lives up to its name.

The Bones of Time and Other Diversions

It’s been a busy couple of weeks, with birthdays and holidays and various little things eating up my time in dainty bites so small you hardly notice until there’s nothing left but the bones.

Speaking of which, this film is either brilliant or disturbing. Or both.

Either way, I want one of those zombie puppets.

Which gives me a nice reason to mention that the latest episode of the Cthulhu podcast features a recording of my short story “Summer Salt” — which makes me quite happy. New episodes of the Cthulhu ‘cast are one of the things I check for whenever I fire up iTunes, so I was doubly pleased when FNH told me he’d accepted the story.

If you’d prefer to use your eyes instead of your ears, you can read the story here.

But you might soon be outnumbered as there are new subscribers still signing up for the “Assam & Darjeeling” and “Matters of Mortology” podcasts. You could still be one of them, just click on the download links here and here.

I received a very nice note last week from a listener in Singapore who has been loving “Assam & Darjeeling” — which gave me a silly smile to wear for a few days.

And while we’re on the subject of smiles, although The Dark Knight had it’s problems I have to say that I agree with most of the hype about Heath Ledger’s portrayal of The Joker. My only quibble is that it overshadows Aaron Eckhart’s work as Two-Face, which was also excellent. And we got a trailer for the Watchmen movie, which I have no doubt will begin to generate more and more hype until it comes out next year.

And, yes, the “other” hype is true too: The new iPhone is outstanding. I’m still saying thank you to the powers that be for giving me one. Doublestuff kickass, to say the least.

(Oops. I forgot to mention that once the two current podcasts finish up, I’ll be starting a brand new one. This next one will be a bit broader, more of an anthology, and much more collaborative with the audience. Details shall follow later this week.)

On the publishing side, I’m currently regrouping after most of my efforts on the BEA trip this year have yet to produce anything fruitful. There’s still a few open leads that I’m waiting to hear back from but this weekend will mark a change in my efforts to connect with an agent, thanks to some good ideas and resources that proved worthwhile for an author friend of mine. As always, stay tuned.

The new project proceeds apace. The writing is going well. It’s going to be a long book.

For what it’s worth, the new book is called Pantheon.

Unclogging the Grate

Spent a fairly miserable time over the past few days, dealing with some sort of bug I picked up on Father’s Day — which was, conversely, a wonderful time out at Aurohn Lake with most of my favorite people.

Unclogging the Grate

It wasn’t all food poisoning and friends, either. I acquitted myself admirably by clearing a number of logs and muck that were clogging the runoff grate on the dam. A close inspection of the debris showed telltale teeth marks. Looks like the rumors are true: There are now beaver living in the lake.

Out in California, most of the rest of them are gathering for a week in Santa Cruz. I might still be able to make it, if the lottery gods finally pony up. Otherwise, I’ll have to lump it here in the Midwest.

The third book (working title to follow just as soon as I make up something clever) is coming along in little nudges. I don’t have a good read on how long it’s going to take me to get it to the end of the first draft but I think I can see the end way, way, way out there if I squint and shade my eyes.

End of the year, let’s say that for now. I reserve the right to completely blow past my own deadline, should the need arise.

Speaking of gods, there are a couple of t-shirts from WearScience.com that are just cool enough to make me wish I’d seen them before my birthday. I especially like this one and this one.

But this one, is nigh unto irresistible.

Other flotsam and jetsam…

I’d like to believe that I would create animated films like this one if I had any kind of graphic talent at all. As such, I’ll have to content myself with words alone.

Speaking of which, I’m delighted to report that my story Summer Salt will be featured in an upcoming episode of the Cthulhu Podcast. Yay.

Also, I expect to have the delayed Other Super Secret Podcast will get pushed out there as well. Possibly.

No words from agents and publishers. With respect to that nice fellow over there, I’m already writing the next thing. It’s all I can do, really.

Really.

Strangers When We Meet

“We travel, some of us forever, to seek other states, other lives, other souls.”
– Anais Nin

Been back home for a week or so — well, going on two weeks now — and I’ve been following up with the handful of contacts, leads, and introductions I made while at the BookExpo America.

Apart from some good connections, the only other notable thing to come out of the trip was that I started writing the next project, my third novel. If you’ve been following me on Twitter, you might have noticed more references to gods than usual. You might as well settle in and get used to it, because that’s what the new project is about.

It’s a bit of a shift, really. I’d had another project planned and plotted, ready to start writing . . . but it just wasn’t there yet. Anything I did felt forced somehow. After a few weeks of working but not feeling it, I decided to set it aside and let my subconscious work on it a bit more.

It wasn’t the project’s fault. There was something off in me and I just couldn’t get in the right position to flip the switch.

If the other project felt forced and difficult, digging out our old notes and sketches was like coming home . . . and I’ve already slid into the work with a sigh of relief.

Who knows, maybe in a few years I’ll come back to the other project and find it’s right there, ready to go.

The second project — the new project, the god project — was one from five years ago that was originally meant to be a collaboration with the excellent Keeley Geary (now my most excellent wife). Although she’s graciously relinquished the story and characters into my hands, I expect she’ll still be involved in the plotting and development process — if for no other reason than I’ll keep asking her annoying questions and trying out ideas on her.

LaDawn Driscoll (a new Twitter friend) recently twittered the quote from Anais Nin above, which serves as a perfect compliment to this one from Homer’s The Odyssey: “For the gods are never strangers when they meet…”

Taken together, Homer and Nin do a pretty good job of summing up where Keeley and I started with this new story, way back when.

I’m not in a position to say much more about the new project just yet, but suffice it to say that I’ve got a lot of writing ahead of me.

And I’m looking forward to it.

But for the Grace

Well.

This is what it’s like: A big convention hall filled with booths, books and people everywhere. Thousands of them. It’s overwhelming sometimes and, eventually, all that I have left are little slices of memory and anecdote…

…stormtroopers in full regalia, posing for pictures with anyone who asked…

…the gorgeously plastic stepford drone handing out free books by L. Ron Hubbard, tempted to ask if he’s still writing…

…a familiar face from the night before, enviously listening as he tells me about the cheeseburger he picked up after all the parties; I’ve not eaten anything of real substance in 24 hours…

…stacks and stacks of free books, people dragging totes and crates on wheels full of them, weighed down with swag like something out of, well, Dante…

…the self-publishing ghetto — a sullen, heartbreaking ghost town; there but for the grace of God…

…the first-time author in the overstuffed chair at the Wizards of the Coast booth, probably half my age, giving me some much needed encouragement, good humor, and advice…

…Alec Baldwin, getting his coffee situated before signing a woman’s book…

…realizing that my left hand has been shaking for over three hours…

…weighed down with books thrust upon me, so glad when one or two of them look promising as something I might actually enjoy reading…

…reminding myself that I’m not here to browse, not here to stand in line with the fanboys — I’ve got more important things to do with my time…

…facing a room full of what should be agents but finding only empty tables, abandoned at the end of a long week…

…doing my best to not remind the exceptionally snotty and rude women from a UK publisher that we kicked their ass at Georgetown, once upon a time…

…calling my wife, listening to her answering machine message because her voice is all I have, all I need to make it over this…

…some very kind and friendly ladies from Chicago who keep handing me the various horror and fantasy titles they publish…

…a line of people wrapped around the center, Leonard Nimoy at a little table at the front…

…the semi-famous comedian and his wife and child, navigating the crowd and trying to ignore the people following them; again, there but for the grace…

…one last friendly, familiar face from the night before — a quick chat outside on the sidewalk, a welcome little flash of grace before the end of a long day.

There was more, but that’s the day in review.

My highest expectations were not met and I barely avoided my worst (all the way through Georgetown, ladies).

I made some good connections, I got some good leads, a few business cards.

I might have even made a friend.

Altogether, that’s more than I had when I started.

Once I get back, the real work begins.

But first . . . I need to eat something.

A Quick One from the Kitchen


Just popping my head in — while the children battle for couch supremacy, while I put the finishing touches on this evening’s Festival of Leftovers — to remind all of you that today is the 30th anniversary of the disappearance of Elvis Presley.

Also, thanks in part a a bout of insomnia that kept me up until 4 o’clock this morning, it looks like I might get the fourth draft of Book One done by the end of the week. If that schedule holds true (and it might) then I have high hopes of the fourth draft being finished within another couple of weeks.

Which is, depending on how you look at it, good news for all of you who wrote in inquiring about your chances for getting on the Reader’s List.

Bless your hearts.

The Candy or The Clown?

After the general activity and excitement of this past weekend, particularly the birthday celebration for my son, it seems to be somewhat anticlimactic to mention that I also managed to finish the third draft of the novel.

At this point, I can say that the majority of it works fairly well. Apart from some unavoidable contrivances, the characters are appealing, the story is interesting, and the general shape of the thing holds together for the most part.

At a deeper level, there are brief glimpses of something in the writing that fascinate me. Little echoes of style that feel very much like something new — or, at least, something new for me. None of these were written “on purpose.” I think there may actually be a good Writer in there somewhere. I can hear a new voice in certain places and I very much like how it sounds.

However, much of the prose is overwritten, sloppy, and awkward.

I’m not being self-effacing here. If anything, I’m being too kind.

Which is why I began working on the fourth draft earlier this week.

The work is moving along fairly quickly, but it’s a bit frustrating to have everything grind to a halt whenever a particularly bad passage shows up. Most of these have been relatively easy to resolve, fix, or simply cut completely . . . however there have been a few which take a fair amount of time to sort through. And, only seven chapters in, I know that there are many more coming down the road.

The fatigue factor is difficult to overcome. I find that the best way to stay focused, to not just skim along, is to read it out loud. That’s been a part of my revision process for years and it’s always a great way to find the sour notes.

It’s also time consuming. I need this to be done, but done well nonetheless.

Fortunately, there’ll be a break after this round. This current draft really is my last shot before it gets into the hands of a few readers (the literary equivalent of beta testers). Six months ago I made a list with thirty or so people on it — a few family members, some friends and acquaintances, a handful of of absolute strangers with whom I share a tenuous online connection at best.

Realistically, I expect that I’ll narrow that list down to perhaps five lucky people who are patient enough to take a shot at reading through it.

It’s a thankless job, for the most part. No golden ticket, no year’s supply of chocolate. At best, they get to read something new and have bragging rights if it turns out to be good. At worst, they can chuck it out twenty minutes into it.

I’m not looking for much in the way of feedback, just a high level, honest response: Did you like it, did you care?

Really, it’s time for someone else to read it.

But before I get there, I have to be honest with myself. It just isn’t there yet . . . but only just. This next draft should be all I need to get it past that line, hopefully well past it.

And then I can start on the next phase: Figuring out how to get it into the right hands of agents and publishers. I bet that process is not nearly as much fun as it sounds.