As a child, very young, I was rushed to the hospital with the croup.<\/p>\n
As my mother tells it, I was sick and she went in to check on me when I was taking a nap . . . and I was gray.<\/p>\n
That was Christmas Eve 1970. I was 18 months old.<\/p>\n
I remember it. <\/p>\n
I remember being in the hospital on Christmas, opening my presents there.<\/p>\n
Even now, from time to time, I still dream of choking. I dream that I have no breath to draw, dream my lungs are being crushed under some unseen hand . . . dream I\u2019ve no air to speak the words in my mouth . . . dream I am gasping for breath...<\/p>\n
Even now, I sometimes wake with a hard knot deep in the back of my throat that lingers for hours.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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